Thursday, October 26, 2017

SheLL



Afraid of my vanity and dignity,
having no idea of what I am doing,
I kept my heart inside an armor of shell,
That only you could see somehow.

A means of survival that I took upon,
to save them from seeing my uncertainty.
To save myself from falling apart,
I limited myself to my shell, stagnated.

Will you hold me ever so tight?
Hug me tight and shatter my shell,
so you will see everything I hide
under my wretched armor of shell.

What secrets I hide under my shell?
Will you accept me without my shell?
Please, drag me out of my tenacious shell
So I can move on - being myself.

-OMG-


Monday, October 2, 2017

My Crazy Friend

Have u ever had a crazy friend?
Yes?
Then I'm pretty sure they are still there. Cuz God - they never leave!!

Well anyway.. I have several of my own. But this one person had made very clear that they are very queer... It's almost scary.

Last Sunday late night.. Well Monday early morning more accurately, my phone started to buzz like crazy. Consecutive whatsapp messages. Not just the phone. Since I had connected my whatapp to my laptop I was getting nonstop notifications with message snippets. And all those were from this person. Well this wasn't that weird for us but this time it broke all the previous records so I got the chills. Texts. Images. NON-STOP!!

I started to think. We had spent the whole day together with some other friends. But she isn't someone who takes photos. So can't be that... Got home few hours ago and talked some more stuff. So not like we have any more catching up to do.. Maybe some trouble? "Yeaaahhh... well that's not very extra-ordinary now is it?" I thought.

I opened up the tabs on my laptop and opened the conversation.
159 MESSAGES!!!
Holy...

This is what the 1st few lines said,

And it went on and on... Words that flooded out from a kind heart and cute pictures to match them well. It was pictorial alright!




 

 

While I was reading my phone started to buzz again. Its ringing!!

As I rushed to get that I saw it was her. No wonder.. I was hoping I will get a call now since she has finished typing. And a little warning shall always prove to be helpful - we had started to believe due to some recent scenarios.

"Hey, I made u something. I'm sorry. Check it out ok?"
"Yeah I saw.. have u gone crazy at last?"
"I dunnooo~ Just check ok? Its a pictorial thing. I wanted to make it. Check it for sure ok?"
"Fine fine. I will. Crazy :P"

Trust me I was at a loss for words. As I went through each line I got more and more emotional. It was hard to reply even. I read in full, some lines again and again... It was a first. Just like many other things that I have been tossed at by this mental being. But as all the rest this too was warm and sweet.

She had put down her honest words in a very beautiful way but I didn't even know how to react. I did thank and compliment but in my heart I felt this as an unfinished business. I needed to do something out of ordinary. Something that I wouldn't usually feel like doing. Actually put some effort and make something unique..

One thing that I learned again and again in the past few years is that if you have something to say to someone, you must do it at the spot before its too late. There is no guarantee that you will be given another chance to do the same. So here I am.. battling the words again..

I am very lucky to have a weird good friend like you. Maybe sometime not everyone gets you but to find someone who will all the time is priceless! And to find someone who you can talk and be comfortable around while all that is just amazing!

I can't think of all the right words to tell you how much of an impact you have made for the last few months but I always want to believe that this will last forever. Defying all the harsh phenomenons.

You my crazy friend, is a real true friend to the last ounce there is!!!

And I wish you nothing but the best and all the good thing there are that you can find while being alive ;)
And yes, I will always be there for you. Please please please don't be hesitant to count on me even though I might not be much of a help or confidence. I insist on that.

My gallery is full of your pictures ryt now. But I'm not gonna delete any of them. I will hold them close - your awesome advice and silly rubbish and all.

 


I have added here some of the most touching ones that I felt. They contain such  strong and inspiring message. If you can get something out of this it will be Awesome!

 
 
 
 
 
 
 






 
 
 
 


And finally, dear reader this wish I make for you.
I wish that you too will find a friend like this if you have not already. If you already have cherish them. Because everyone is not as luck as you and me. Life is not the same without them...